The last illustration I gave by Steven Childers may interest you. “A man was hiking. He saw a house on the other side of the field. Next to the house was a man ferociously pumping water from a well. The man continued to pump water even more ferociously. It was as if he knew no tiredness. He never slowed down. He just wouldn’t stop, but keep on pumping the water…. It was amazing what he saw, so he drew closer to the man. As he drew closer, he realized that the man was not really a man, but a piece of wood that looked like a man. The arm that looked like it was pumping water with great speed was connected to the handle of the pump by a piece of wire. The reason the water was flowing out was not because of the wooden manikin. The well was a deep fresh water well that even with out a pump the water would have overflowed. In reality it was the overflowing water that was moving the manikin." Childers added, "To all those who seek to be close to Christ, the Holy Spirit will be abundantly poured out. The only thing we must do is 'put our hand on the handle of the pump'"
To be open I am tired in many ways. I also need to do the same.